Impatient

I want to have deep thoughts and post on message boards.

Why I Am Still Here-

I've stuck myself to posting online long ago but still not enough earlier in time to be "legit."

It has been my escape.  I locked myself from my family! and just posted online for years!  12 to be exact if you count all the years since I started, but I literally locked myself in my room for 2 1/2 years.  I don't talk, sing, laugh, joke, etc., as well, and people still ignore me if I'm good at posting online.

Still, all I seem to see is my family and people nagging at me when I go grocery shopping with my dad, etc., or to the mall or something.

Too Much Blogging?

Many people are real writers and many people talk a lot.

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like taking the pearl

Concerned

at my futile attempts in violin might sink like my singing ... crunching time when I am publicly humiliated and socially downgraded and in relation.

Normal Person With Odd Problems

I'm considered bad for being sad about my problems, like I'm "just like everyone else" on their bad day.

Entering My Life

I'm trying to ignore bad things of people distracting me.

"What's Important?"

So, why does one person matter more than others and not me much at all anymore?

Edit

I edited my last post.

"Look Me in the Eye"

I follow a German orchestra online, and I see some of them staring at one of them.

Edit: following that person's every move, it seems

"Finders, Keepers. Losers, Weepers."

It seems now if I meet anyone I like a lot they will be hypnotized from me.

"Better Yet"

Maybe, the more you sight read, the better you'll get.

Do Music Like Crazy

You can't even match a Broadway tune on a MIDI file.

*Disclaimer: I'm making up people to talk to.

Lost

People are preventing me from my music being liked.

*But They Did It!!!*

People keep saying motherly people should have your happiness stolen and given to them.

..and it's official, again!

I am to go to Loyola and take German, the intermediate and advanced courses at the college nextdoor.

Now, to get into violin, double stop scales (2 notes at a time.)  I just can't seem to find the right book!

I gotcha there!

Everyone keeps agreeing that people are wrong who hurt me, but they still think I'm in trouble!

Me Singing Now