It's not hard, to tell.

People not involved in things I observe might agree it's petty and a pity, but it's not the same reason.  I think people are really set up against me in their efforts to stall me in my footsteps.  It's not that they're silly.  It's that they are prejudiced against me.  They're out to get me.  They, in a word, think I'm in trouble and for selfish reasons of their own, like racism as a tap out, and I disagree, of course.  It's an elaborate mess, and I've wasted a lot of time and have observed of much regret.  I wanted to think I was building up, but that was cast down as selfish, that I hope for a surprise party or something socially, which I had, but I wasn't on top of things; people denied my talents and things I enjoy because I wasn't as advanced technically in any one thing.  I cannot say I was good if no one admits it in any said way than just in the wind.  Maybe, I was just good at performing in front of a crowd, sparked up.  I am auditioning for The Nutcracker and maybe some plays if I don't make that.  It might be good for me and make me function better, if not too busy.  They didn't reveal the schedule.  I informed them I was dancing.